heart spilled
I was watching this series on prayer by Francis Chan and there was one prayer that challenged me. “God will you reveal to me the reason that I wake up today. Will you show me how I could live this day for you.” I took this to heart pretty heavily. As I finished that video, I started to dissect my daily life trying to differentiate the meat from the fat. Wow, I realized how sad my life was. How dare I live my life like this. I waste so much time just sitting around wasting my God-given breathe and seconds of my life. How much more I could take those moments and time to grow!
John Piper talked about how valuable every single second of your life is in his “Don’t Waste Your Life” sermon which reinforced my already compounded depression of my life. People live, people die without knowing Christ and they are all condemn to hell. You best believe this statement because being ignorant wont do you any good. You see, we have this one life to live; why not live each second out for his glory? When we Christians die, we’ll be in heaven where we could only look upon the people alive to continue on the works of the gospel. Why waste this life we have? It is by sheer grace you are alive too. God isn’t doing you any favors by keeping you alive. You are alive by his grace alone. Now I see why there are so many missionaries out their living for his glory. Each life is precious. So don’t be afraid to talk to them about the gospel. They are our potential brothers and sisters in heaven and do you really want to rob them of their salvation? Who are you to deny them this gift of eternal life? Who are you? Be unashamed. Open your mouth and speak.
God has been so evident and real in my life these days. The more I seek him, the more comfort I find in his presence. The more I drift away from him, the more I realize I need his guidance and love. You see, what sets aside Christianity from ANY other religion (if you can call it that) is that our God wants to build a relationship with us. He is the only one who reaches out for us. That is how much he loves us. He is our heavenly father. He is our dad, our abba father. My life has been such a mess these days, trying to find pleasure in other things, trying to do things my way, following my head not God. I felt so empty. I felt so lonely. I felt so worthless and dead.
All I need is you Jesus! I’m on my knees crying, my heart so broken, calling on this one precious name Jesus! Father you are so so good to me. Fill me with the Holy Spirit that I may no longer thirst. Set a fire in my soul.
Jehovah Jireh, my Provider
Jehovah Nissi, Lord You reign in victory
Jehovah Shalom, my Prince of Peace
And I worship You, because of who You Are.
